Today we came to visit you for the first time, I got you some pink roses and yellow one from Gabriel. It was so strange to buy you flowers, I so wish I didn't need to. Mum, Katie, Gabriel and I went to the service at Bridell. Gabriel was so funny, even though he has a nasty cold he is just the sweetest, funniest little boy, I'm sure he takes after you in character. He didn't want to sit still in church, he had his little blue racing car and he was climbing up and down the pews and running up and down the aisle. I tried to get him to sit down but the canon told me to let him carry on, so I did. Well he was climbing in and out of the pulpit, talking to the canon during prayers and running up to the altar, carrying the kneeling cushions back to me, piling them up and climbing on top, we were all giggling, he even tried to join in with the organist!! He really is keeping me going at the moment.
It was a lovely day so after the service we all came out to your grave (how I hate saying that!), your funeral flowers have seen better days because of the frost, so I gave you your new ones in a pint tankard which I'm sure you will appreciate. Gabriel was running around the graveyard which I'm not sure is entirely appropriate, but I think it's nice to have some joy there with you x
I know your sisters Gladys and Rosie and your brother Tom have been down to see you, auntie Mags is still rather poorly so she hasn't been able to yet but she will, look after her daddy. We went back to tea (of course!) at Uncle Tom's, he had the mail on Sunday there and it reminded me so much of you.
I miss you so much Daddy, I can still hardly believe you're not here anymore. I keep expecting you to ring me or be downstairs all the time, or to see you walking down the hill. I just want to see you, hug you tight and tell you how much I love you. It's not fair that you aren't here anymore.
Love you always,
Helen xxx
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