Dear Daddy,
Today has been hard, no, everyday has been hard. Today they collected you from the hospital, we gave them clothes for you to wear. You always looked smart, never without a shirt and tie, we sent your best suit (we had it dry cleaned of course!) and I got you a new shirt, socks and pants, we polished your shoes and chose you a tie, I hope you like what we chose for you. I got you a bible to take with you aswell it felt important that you should have that, and Katie put in a beautiful photo of the two of you when you went to Barcelona. I hope you know that we are all so proud of everything you achieved in what was supposed to be a little retirement job but turned out to be something you excelled at, of course due to your incredible personality. So many people thought so highly of you, myself included. You are back in Cardigan now so you can expect a few visitors over the next couple of days. You will be coming home for the last time on Wednesday, I think that is what you would want. I hope we are doing things the way you would have wanted us to, we are determined to give you a beautiful send off. We have chosen four hymns for you, you loved to sing and I think they are hymns that you will enjoy and that will get everyone singing. Its going to be so hard following you into church, I am going to read a poem for you that I hope you will enjoy, I will be able to do it because i'm doing it for you daddy and I know you will be with me.
I have put together an album of all the digital photos we have of you, I love it! You are so happy in all of the pictures and that is exactly how I want to remember you. I have decided against seeing you now, it just won't be you, I hope you understand why i've made this decision. I want to remember my Daddy as the vibrant charcter that he was, happy and smiling. I hope you don't feel that i've let you down by not seeing you, I will be there of course though I know you have already left that body, I hope you are still here in someway and that you know how much I love you.
I've been looking at photos from when we went to Berlin, i'm so glad we had that weekend we spent a lot of time together and I enjoyed your company immensely, I always did.
Love you always,
Helen xx
Monday, 30 January 2012
Saturday, 28 January 2012
A week today x
Dear Daddy,
Well, it's been a week. An awful week, a week that has gone so fast. It's been 9 days since I saw you. We said goodnight, little did I know that it would be for the last time. I'm so glad I worked that Thursday night and had that precious time with you, chatting and laughing. I hope you knew that I loved you as a father but also as a friend. Your friendliness and happy nature lit this place up, my God you are missed. I loved hearing you and Gwyn laughing and joking, telling stories of your past antics, what fun you must have had on those rugby trips! We are getting a book for everyone to write the stories in, it says 'A wonderful life' on the cover and I think you did have a wonderful life. Dai buzz said you are with Byron having a pint! I hope you are enjoying heaven, you always used to say 'Jesus wants me for a sunbeam', well now he has you and you will be the brightest sunbeam in the sky, the one that makes everyone feel happy. Send my love to everyone up there and tell Victor thanks for coming to see me, if you ever want to come visit there will always be a warm welcome for you. I wonder if he was trying to tell me that you would soon be joining him, it's funny that it was your birthday when he visited me on that ouija board, tell him I'm so glad that he did.
I wake up every morning thinking I've had a nightmare, but it's real you aren't on this earth anymore. I will carry on looking after you though Daddy, I will be down to see you as often as I can and you will always be in my thoughts and prayers.
Love you always,
Helen xx
Well, it's been a week. An awful week, a week that has gone so fast. It's been 9 days since I saw you. We said goodnight, little did I know that it would be for the last time. I'm so glad I worked that Thursday night and had that precious time with you, chatting and laughing. I hope you knew that I loved you as a father but also as a friend. Your friendliness and happy nature lit this place up, my God you are missed. I loved hearing you and Gwyn laughing and joking, telling stories of your past antics, what fun you must have had on those rugby trips! We are getting a book for everyone to write the stories in, it says 'A wonderful life' on the cover and I think you did have a wonderful life. Dai buzz said you are with Byron having a pint! I hope you are enjoying heaven, you always used to say 'Jesus wants me for a sunbeam', well now he has you and you will be the brightest sunbeam in the sky, the one that makes everyone feel happy. Send my love to everyone up there and tell Victor thanks for coming to see me, if you ever want to come visit there will always be a warm welcome for you. I wonder if he was trying to tell me that you would soon be joining him, it's funny that it was your birthday when he visited me on that ouija board, tell him I'm so glad that he did.
I wake up every morning thinking I've had a nightmare, but it's real you aren't on this earth anymore. I will carry on looking after you though Daddy, I will be down to see you as often as I can and you will always be in my thoughts and prayers.
Love you always,
Helen xx
Friday, 27 January 2012
6 days....
Dear Daddy,
Its been 6 days since you left us, I still can't believe you're gone. I miss you constantly and love you so much. I wish you were here.
Today I registered your death, I am trying to be strong and do the best I can for you but it is so hard. We learned that you had a heart attack, I hope it happened so fast that you knew nothing about it, I hate to think of you alone and in pain.
We have planned your funeral, you will be buried at Bridell very close to your parents. It's beautiful there, we chose you a lovely spot near the Church door so you will have plenty of visitors, you loved people and people loved you, we didn't think you'd want to be tucked away in the corner.
We are showing Gabriel photos of you, and will keep doing so, he will not forget his Grandad who loved him so much. I'm glad that you knew him, I just wish you could have stayed longer and seen him grow.
We have had so many messages since you passed, you would be so proud to know how much people loved you and will miss you. One place you are already missed is The Com, this place will never be the same without you at the bar smiling and making everyone feel welcome. I will miss you being there and chatting to me when I work.
Love you,
Helen xx
Its been 6 days since you left us, I still can't believe you're gone. I miss you constantly and love you so much. I wish you were here.
Today I registered your death, I am trying to be strong and do the best I can for you but it is so hard. We learned that you had a heart attack, I hope it happened so fast that you knew nothing about it, I hate to think of you alone and in pain.
We have planned your funeral, you will be buried at Bridell very close to your parents. It's beautiful there, we chose you a lovely spot near the Church door so you will have plenty of visitors, you loved people and people loved you, we didn't think you'd want to be tucked away in the corner.
We are showing Gabriel photos of you, and will keep doing so, he will not forget his Grandad who loved him so much. I'm glad that you knew him, I just wish you could have stayed longer and seen him grow.
We have had so many messages since you passed, you would be so proud to know how much people loved you and will miss you. One place you are already missed is The Com, this place will never be the same without you at the bar smiling and making everyone feel welcome. I will miss you being there and chatting to me when I work.
Love you,
Helen xx
Goodbye to my darling Daddy.
Dear Daddy,
Firstly I want to tell you that I love you so much and I hope that you know it and never doubted it. You are the best daddy ever, you were so kind and generous both materially and in spirit. I have never seen anyone who had such an amazing outlook on life, you were always happy and so positive, you never had a bad word to say about anyone and you never complained about anything.
You loss to me is immeasurable, I will never forget the afternoon of Saturday, January 21st 2012. I'm sorry you passed away alone, I wish I had been there for you at the end. I can only hope that it happened so quickly that you experienced no suffering and that you knew how much you were loved. I wish you had told me you were feeling unwell - but that wasn't your way, you would never have told anyone in a million years and I know I would never have gotten you to a doctor or God forbid a hospital!
Everyone misses you so much already, my world is a different place without you.
Love you,
Helen x
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| My Darling Daddy, Garfield George Jenkins. |
You loss to me is immeasurable, I will never forget the afternoon of Saturday, January 21st 2012. I'm sorry you passed away alone, I wish I had been there for you at the end. I can only hope that it happened so quickly that you experienced no suffering and that you knew how much you were loved. I wish you had told me you were feeling unwell - but that wasn't your way, you would never have told anyone in a million years and I know I would never have gotten you to a doctor or God forbid a hospital!
Everyone misses you so much already, my world is a different place without you.
Love you,
Helen x
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